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(美樹 さやか)SAYAKA MIKI ([personal profile] holger) wrote in [community profile] loudly2014-07-07 02:31 am
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[personal profile] prays 2014-07-07 06:57 am (UTC)(link)



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[personal profile] prays 2014-07-07 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ As soon as Sayaka's eyes are closed, focused intently on her drink, a pair of hands clasp her shoulders from behind, push down like someone is trying to lift themselves up, leaning over her to make her teeter between falling back or falling forward from where she sits.

Who else would it be? Kyoko expects to see everyone else make their appearances, too, hasn't heard of any special lunch dates happening, decides to use Sayaka as leverage to catch sight of them. There's no one in the distance. Her feet hit the ground again and she sighs, like that whole thing was a disappointment. ]


Hey, this isn't some new loner persona, is it? [ Of all people to be concerned about that. ] You're really eating by yourself?
prays: (wondering what went wrong)

[personal profile] prays 2014-07-08 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
[ An elbow eventually lands against her side and she makes an unnecessarily indignant noise. It doesn't hurt, obviously, but Sayaka has to know what she's done. With all the maturity she can muster, she doesn't start up some fight, just gives another shove and takes a snack out of her pocket. It's some chocolate mess that's terrible for lunch and normal for her. ]

Obviously, 'cause I was looking for you. You're always running off like some kid. [ And Kyoko will usually chase after, but her treat was more important this time.

She moves to sit in the spot next to Sayaka, the one that's taken up by her leftovers, and frowns at them like they're some offense. ]
What's this, seconds?
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[personal profile] prays 2014-07-14 04:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ She nods, of course, why would Sayaka waste perfectly good food? They're apparently pretty appetizing, too, because she lifts a piece of crust to stuff in her mouth, then motions for Sayaka to take the rest. ]

What kinda person saves the crusts for after? [ Not that she's complaining. ]

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2014-07-24 10:36 pm (UTC)(link)
( there was a time where homura cared for sayaka miki-

perhaps it was because she was friends with madoka, or perhaps because the two were similar in some ways long ago. they were both naive, and they both had made their wish in hopes of saving someone else.

with each and every timeline, almost the exact same fate consumed the other. she would wish for that boy to be saved, her heart would get broken, and it would end in death.

homura did try and save her from herself on many occasions, but as always the other struck back with vile hate and suspicion. by the time homura witnessed the same ending for the other more than once, she had given up hope on her.

that wasn't to say she didn't try and plant little seeds of hope here and there. she just wasn't very successful and it took away time that could have been used to save madoka.

when sayaka approached homura, she had been on top of building, watching the world unravel before her eyes. to anyone else it might have seemed as if she was planning on jumping, but she wasn't. although she had thought about it once or twice....but she wasn't selfish in that sense.

when the sound of footsteps grew louder, homura did not turn, she simply looked up and spoke. )


I appreciate the gesture.

( as the wind lifted her long hair up and gently dragged it across her face, she remained absolutely still, waiting for the next move. )

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2014-07-24 11:11 pm (UTC)(link)
( perhaps that's how it would end for homura; her death by someone else's hands. maybe then she wouldn't feel about not saving madoka and she could be released from her pain in the most innocent of manners.

multiple timelines suggest that it probably won't happen, though.

homura eventually turned her head towards the other and scoffed a bit at her comment. there was a time where she enjoyed bitter things, but as time went on, she found a rather odd taste for sweeter things. perhaps it was because of madoka. )


I'll take the milk coffee.

( let that be a lesson sayaka. )

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2014-07-24 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
( homura stepped off the ledge and reached for it, taking it gently. this was one of those rare moments where she recalled what she was liked before, and what the old her would have done. she would have laughed and said 'sayaka-chan, stop teasing me.' that girl was long dead and many lifetimes away.

so instead homura remained silent and still. she was like this for a good while until the sound of an opening can disrupted the silence. )


No....I find that black coffee stains your teeth.

( that's all she could say about that.

as she took a light sip of the drink, her eyes turned towards the sky again and she wondered what exactly sayaka was trying to accomplish here. she couldn't be saved, and she often times didn't want to be. perhaps she was here for another reason....homura needed to figure it out. )


Don't you have things to do tonight?

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2014-07-25 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
( she placed the can aside and then she held her gaze upon sayaka's for a while. soon her eyes scanned the area around them, and she found herself truly calm for the first time in the longest.

it was as if the world they inhabited was a joyous and happy one instead of one stained in blood and sadness. )


Well it's certainly different from all your other nights.

( this was very new. even when there was a time they got along, they were never alone with each other, at least not for this long. also they had never really spoken much outside of her trying to convince the other that there was danger in trusting in kyuubey.

her eyes soon drifted up towards the sky and she spoke again. )


Is this how you wish to spend your night? At my side, drinking coffee?

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2014-07-25 03:17 am (UTC)(link)
I see.

( there is nothing more to say. she knew what her answer would be, but still decided to ask, just to ask. what she got was what she deserved, and homura didn't have much else to say.

as they both fell silent, she thought about what would happen tomorrow. sometimes the continuum surprised her; the day would be considerably different than before, but the next day would fall right back into place. usually the same thing happened; occasionally an outside power would vary homura's day and that sometimes caught her by surprise. it was those little things that still filled her with hope.

the sound of the coffee opening brought her back, and she soon turned towards sayaka. as much as she wanted to keep this little gathering peaceful, she couldn't help but find herself slightly annoyed with that suggestion. 'we're similar now.'

she couldn't be more wrong. )


Sayaka-san, we have a few similarities.....

( she took a turn towards the other, her hair lifting up in the movement, and she closed in on her.

with her eyes narrowed and her mouth slightly twisted, she spoke once more. )


But you and I will never be truly similar.

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2014-07-25 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
( she might have seen her as that, pretentious, cold, calculating. the reality was that homura saw herself as an intruder, an outsider.

in order to protect those around her, she had to distance herself from them all and become the mature one. it was a terrible burden, and in a way, she felt as if nobody could understand her. nobody would ever, so it was best to keep herself distant. previous timelines taught her that when she tried to open up, she was met with the cold hand of ignorance and disgust.

so now she remained silent, taking in the other's reaction. it was surprisingly positive, and for that she would reward her with a simple nod. )


I suppose that's the way it is. The way it will always be.

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2014-07-25 03:37 am (UTC)(link)
( well that certainly was new. like it was mentioned, it was these little things that took homura by surprise.

she had expected her to become red at the face, huff and puff, and retaliate at her. instead she simply offered what was in a way, a solution.

homura turned her back towards her, and placed her arms behind her. she was a professional when it came to masking and hiding her true emotions, but for once she felt like saying what she felt.

she didn't. instead she looked up at the sky and spoke the truth. )


Sayaka, it does not matter where we are, what time it is, or what has happened. I will always be this way. There is no changing what is written and set in stone.

I'd advise you not to try and change things, for your own good.

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2014-07-25 04:09 am (UTC)(link)
( there was a sudden awkwardness plunging the space between them. homura wasn't sure if she should indulge the other and flat out say 'yes' or just bide her time.

not that she missed the way it was before, simply that she didn't want to argue much with the other.

what had to be done, had to be done still. so she slowly turned again and looked down at sayaki.

in a soft and almost godly voice, she spoke again. )


It is not in my nature to kill beings who have not brought it upon themselves to be killed.

However I am not opposed to ending your life if I needed to.

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2014-07-25 06:28 pm (UTC)(link)
( her sudden movements did not shake homura. she remained still and watched her in silence. so it had come back to this, it always did. it always did.

homura shook her head lightly and then spoke again. )


I do not believe that. I do not believe that anyone is better than anyone else. We are all equal in that sense.

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2014-07-25 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
( homura could automatically sense that those words were kyoko's influence upon the girl. that didn't mean they stung any less.

homura walked closer to sayaka, watching as her back curved in a bit and how her hair looked in against the night sky. she would not kill her unless it was asked for, and even then she would still consider madoka's feelings about all of this.

for that was the main reason these two were even speaking to each other. )


I do believe that I know more than you when it comes to certain things. That is all I have over you.

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2014-07-26 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
Then why did you come here today, Sayaka Miki? Is it to discuss the world we live in and how it isn't fair at all or to be my friend?

( her eyes lowered down upon the other and soon she was standing right up next to her. )

This is the last time you and I will be able to converse this freely.

[personal profile] ex_plus110 2015-03-08 11:49 pm (UTC)(link)


[personal profile] ex_plus110 2015-03-09 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
( the labyrinth of invisibility and insanity capture those who have a history of self-martyrdom. this particular one was not set to capture sayaka personally, but that it happened to, was a treat for the demon. corridors and stairs that twist and turn, cycling into each other were the deal. anyone who got trapped would stay trapped unless homura personally choose to liberate them. would she liberate the magical girl from this torture? not yet, not until she's had her twisted fun.

as the sound of crashing fills the void, homura finds herself melting into the stairs, following after the girl. she is everywhere, filling the space of the void, and the void filling the space within her. her purple eyes glare, almost piercingly into the blue-haired girl, and they observe everything. her eyes, the way her hair bounces in the air, and the way she falls on her behind. she can't say she's too obsessed with her, but they share something deep-

they were both witches.

when sayaka screams at herself to stand up, homura transmutates into a physical matter. she's still hidden, cut up along the dotted lines, turned inside out. on the edge of the labyrinth, she takes a step, finally revealing herself to the other. she is [thankfully] alone. )


It's you walking home all alone. The sounds of your feet pitter-patting against the cement floor. Echo across echo, all alone.

( when a glimmer of light beckoned across homura's face, she tilted her head back and gave a somber glance. this girl, did she retain her memories as a witch? homura didn't feel like prying into her just yet. )

You're still the same, getting sucked into things you don't belong in.